Hindi ko alam kung ano mararamdaman ko ngayon. Gusto ko na lang matapos to eh. Ayoko na. Feeling ko hindi ko na kaya…
“There’s somebody out there that’s meant for you. There’s somebody out there that’s perfect for you.” - Zac Efron
Naniniwala ako dito. Na darating at darating yung panahon sa buhay natin, kung saan makikilala natin yung taong nakatakda talaga para satin. Yung taong magpapatunay na worth it lahat ng paghihintay at pinagdaanan mo bago mo siya nakilala. Yung taong dahilan kung bakit hindi kayo nag-work out ng mga ex mo. Kasi siya pala talaga yung para sa’yo.
Kaso minsan, ewan ko ba kung sobrang tanga lang talaga natin na, nahanap mo na pala siya, pinakawalan mo pa. O kaya naman, bulag ka lang talaga dahil hindi mo makitang siya yung tama para sa’yo.
Most of the time, when I’ve been hurt by someone, I pretend not to care at all. I’ll just laugh it off as I always do. But deep inside, a part of me wants to controvert what you’ve done and said. Or eventually even stab you to death.
Everything is worse than I expected. People change, yes. But pain makes them change. For my point-of-view, having to be hurt by someone intentionally isn’t cool. It’s pathetic. But we often do it to other people too just for the sake of having them realize what you’ve been through before. Hurting someone because you’ve been hurt in the past, and the cycle goes on. Don’t you think we should do the irony of that instead? Not hurting someone because you’ve known the feeling of being hurt and thus, do not want other person to suffer something like that.
Oh well, people nowadays.
My bff back then in grade-school told me a week ago that she hanged out with some of our classmates one afternoon. As they are talking about other people’s life, I’ve came to be a topic. They asked her (my bff) if it’s true that I’m in a relationship with a girl, if I’m smoking and stuffs like that. I’M 16 PEEPHOLES! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?! SIT THERE AND READ MY TEXTBOOK ALL DAY?! I just don’t believe that people I’ve known back then, when I was still a child haven’t grown up yet. Not the height growth stuff but the maturity they should have built in highschool!! Like, srsly?! Bitches please!